Posted in Mom Life, Running

Long Beach Half Marathon

A week ago, I ran the Long Beach Half Marathon. It was my first half marathon of the year and my first half marathon as a mom. I am 9 months postpartum. Last year, this was my last half marathon as a pregnant runner, I was 6 months pregnant. 

Last year it took me exactly 3 hours to complete and this year I improved my time by more than 30 minutes, finishing in 2 hours and 22 minutes. 

I normally try to follow a training plan, but many things stopped me from following it completely this year. I was much busier juggling my baby with running and working. I didn’t run as often or as long as I wanted to. I used to be able to wake up early and go for runs, but now I just want to sleep in as much as I can and since I don’t have anyone to watch Selena so I can go running, I would just skip my runs. In fact, the longest run this year prior to the half marathon was a 10k a month ago!

I felt so undertrained and so unprepared. My original goal was to finish in under 2 hours. However, because my training did not go as planned, I said I would be happy to beat last year’s time, 3 hours and to finish. I ended up running a good race and to make things even better, I ran the whole half marathon nonstop! This was something I had never been able to do prior to becoming a mom. At the end of it, I was exhausted but so proud of myself. My next two races are much shorter, a 5k and 10k this weekend. I have no goals, just to go out and have fun! One of my sisters will also be running, but she will be running the 1k.

Posted in Life, Mom Life

One and Done

Being a mom is much harder than I thought. My mom, who had six children, makes it look so easy. Maybe when I am a little bit older, I will change my mind, but for now, I am so one and done! What do I mean by that? Well, as of right now, my baby girl Selena will be my only child.

When I was younger, I never really thought I wanted to be a mom. I always thought if I became a mom, it would “ruin my body”. I was under the impression that becoming a mom meant getting stretch marks, gaining weight, and getting cellulite. I was also scared to have a baby because I knew it would be very painful. Of course I realize now that these are very dumb reasons for not wanting to have a baby, but back then I thought it was important to look a certain way.

Finding out I was pregnant last year was very shocking and upsetting at first. As time went on, I would feel my baby kicking and all her little movements and started picturing my life with her. When I found out that I was having a girl, I was super excited. The closer I got to my due date, the more excited and happy I got. I came up with a list of nearly twenty names and Selena was the name that won, although if it had been completely up to me, her name would’ve been Anastasia.

As much as I love my baby,being a mom is hard. I really thought I would have more support. My mom and sister help out as much as possible, but they work and have their own things to do. I wish I could just stay home with my baby and be a stay at home mom or at least work from home, but this isn’t possible. I had to go back to work when my baby was 3 months old and I hated it. I was always worried about the baby when I was working and I dreaded going to work because I just wanted to be with my baby all the time.

People don’t really talk about the postpartum period and the “fourth trimester” as much as they talk about pregnancy. I knew I shouldn’t expect to sleep much with a baby and was told I would never “get my body back”. However, no one warned me that it is mentally challenging as well. Postpartum depression and postpartum anxiety are two challenges that many mothers go through after giving birth. I used to think why would anyway be depressed after having a baby? It’s such a joyous and happy occasion! I didn’t realize that some mothers get postpartum depression for many reasons. I also didn’t realize I had it until I was about 3 months postpartum. Some of the symptoms that I have experienced while dealing with postpartum depression are: insomnia, over worrying about everything, constantly feeling like I am not a good enough mother and that Selena deserves a better mom,not eating enough, lack of interest in doing something I love (working out), getting angry way too quickly, and having trouble concentrating on most things. At 9 months postpartum, I feel like I am finally starting to feel like my normal self again, though occasionally I do still have some really bad days. I feel like I lost myself as a mother, but through running and writing, I have found myself again, as cheesy and corny as that sounds.

Regardless of all this, I love by baby girl Selena. I just don’t think I can put myself through this again. The last 6 months have been so difficult for me. I am struggling financially, sometimes emotionally, and even physically.

Here’s a great article I found on postpartum depression if you want to learn more about it.

Postpartum Depression Facts

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Santa Monica Classic 10k

About a month ago, I ran in my very first postpartum 10k. I had done that race when I was about 5 months pregnant last year. My finish time last year was a little over 1 hour and 15 minutes. I had originally wanted to finish this year’s race in under an hour.

However, it wasn’t meant to be, though I did get really close. My official time was 1 hour and 3 minutes. I was slightly disappointed, but that was my longest run of the year. I have a 10k race coming up this year and I plan to run that one in under an hour. This local 10k has a flat course, while the 10k in Santa Monica had a few hills, which I am not a fan of!

I am glad that I am almost running the pace that I used to run before getting pregnant and having Selena. I have been running regularly, though the cold weather that;s coming might keep me from running as much. Still need to improve on running longer distances since I am training for the LA Marathon in March 2020.



Posted in Bucket Lists, Challenge

LA Stair Climb

One event that I looked forward to all year was the LA Stair Climb that takes place every year in Downtown LA at the US Bank Tower. It’s the tallest building west of the Mississippi River and it’s 75 stories high.

I did this race last year at 5.5 months pregnant. I couldn’t push myself of course, so instead, I just walked the whole way up without stopping. My time last year was 24 minutes and 17 seconds.

I trained for it this year by using the stairmaster at my local gym. My main goal was to beat last year’s time. My other goal was to finish in under 20 minutes. I beat last year’s time by 3.5 minutes which is great! However, I barely missed finishing in under 20 minutes. My official time was 20 minutes and 34 seconds.

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My First Half Marathon as a Mom

I am two months away from running my first half marathon as a mom. I have been training the last few weeks, though not consistently. To make it more challenging, not only will I be running 13.1 miles, I will be running 13.1 miles while pushing my baby in her stroller.

I have done one 5k while pushing her in the stroller. It wasn’t challenging. The one thing I didn’t like was being stuck in the back with all the walkers. So far I have gone for a 5 mile run with Selena. The last mile was the hardest. Since I will be running with Selena, I don’t have a time goal in mind. I just want to finish.

It has been much harder for me to get a run in now that I have a baby. My choices are to either run with the baby or run very early in the morning. Since I am not running as often, my runs are usually very slow. I am happy that I am back to running though. This is one thing I missed. I think I went about four months without running, which is the longest break I’ve had since I took up running back in 2016.

Last year I ran the Long Beach Half Marathon at 6 months pregnant. This year I will be running it while pushing a 9 month old baby in her stroller. I am looking forward to that challenge.