When I was going through the breakup, I channeled my inner Taylor Swift and wrote a few songs, will post them tomorrow if I don’t get lazy or distracted by tumblr and watching movies, like I did today. I also wanted to finally post up a few other things, like my football/soccer adventures, ie Real Madrid in LA and my weekend in Portland and a few other things. I’ll do this all tomorrow *crosses fingers*
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I Guess He Was Right
Before you guys think I’m talking about the (work) ex, I’m not. I’m sure many of you remember when I used to like another coworker, before I started liking my ex. We’ll call him “D” for now. Well, I think I wrote about a comment he made to me at work one day. At the time, I was like omg, I can’t believe he told me that, but then I started to think about it and I realized that he was somewhat right, like he had a point. Idk why I was still thinking about what he said more than a week later, but I guess because it’s because that’s how I am. Certain comments that people make just stay with me for a while.
Well, he had asked me if I wore makeup. When I said no, he kept asking me why not? Then he was like is it because you don’t want to attract people, the attraction or something like that. At first, I was like omg no -.- But since then, I realized that he’s kind of right. When I go to work or just go out in general, I don’t put too much thought into my appearance, ie make up, my hair, or my clothes. I guess in a way, sometimes, I’d rather be invisible. Hmm, well maybe not invisible, but I’d rather not go all out- ie put on make up, fix my hair all nice, wear pretty clothes, try to look attractive and have people not even notice or think I’m not good enough. Idk if that makes sense, but I guess what I’m trying to say is that I don’t want to put in the effort and then it’s not even worth it.
Idk maybe I don’t make sense but that’s just how I feel.
Que Sera, Sera
For those who don’t speak Spanish, the title of my post(roughly) translates to “Whatever Will Be, Will Be”. So, I have a confession, I went to work today to check my schedule and I know I said I didn’t want to run into him but…I kinda did want to see him, idek why, but I didn’t run into him and maybe that’s for the best. It seems like I’m the only one who wants us to talk again and be friends. He has my number and knows where to find me (at work and on fb). I guess what I’m saying is I’m just done. I don’t want to be the one putting all the effort into trying/hinting that he should maybe start talking to me again. If he doesn’t want to, then I guess I’ve just got to accept that. I’ll miss our friendship, but like the song says “whatever will be will, the future’s not ours to see”. He’s not the only person I can talk to at work, or text, or even on fb. And he’s also not the only person I can hang out with. Well, I guess in a way this is a good-bye note/letter/post whatever to him. This is what he wanted, hope he’s happy. I’m done.
Bye A…
Teresa
I’ve Decided…
to start writing here a lot more often. I noticed that sometimes I’ll go weeks or even months without writing anything. So, I will try to write in it every day. At least 15 minutes a day, I guess. I’m sure there will be days when nothing interesting happens, but I’ll figure something out 🙂 and also, I have a few things I’ve written but keep forgetting to post up, like my trip to Portland, Real Madrid in LA, getting to see AVB in person etc. Will try to post all these up tonight, after working on my homework of course.
Bye for now! 🙂
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