Before you guys think I’m talking about the (work) ex, I’m not. I’m sure many of you remember when I used to like another coworker, before I started liking my ex. We’ll call him “D” for now. Well, I think I wrote about a comment he made to me at work one day. At the time, I was like omg, I can’t believe he told me that, but then I started to think about it and I realized that he was somewhat right, like he had a point. Idk why I was still thinking about what he said more than a week later, but I guess because it’s because that’s how I am. Certain comments that people make just stay with me for a while.
Well, he had asked me if I wore makeup. When I said no, he kept asking me why not? Then he was like is it because you don’t want to attract people, the attraction or something like that. At first, I was like omg no -.- But since then, I realized that he’s kind of right. When I go to work or just go out in general, I don’t put too much thought into my appearance, ie make up, my hair, or my clothes. I guess in a way, sometimes, I’d rather be invisible. Hmm, well maybe not invisible, but I’d rather not go all out- ie put on make up, fix my hair all nice, wear pretty clothes, try to look attractive and have people not even notice or think I’m not good enough. Idk if that makes sense, but I guess what I’m trying to say is that I don’t want to put in the effort and then it’s not even worth it.
Idk maybe I don’t make sense but that’s just how I feel.
90s California Runner Mom 